Reasons? What reasons
Can stand to explain
These turmoil emotions
Which cause me this pain
A feeling of loss
Of what wasn’t mine
Then what is the reason
Of what I do find

A loss? What loss
For loss would mean
Once upon the ownership
Was in my custody 

Sense? What sense
In this emptied room
Can be made of the feeling
Of a darkened gloom

Or maybe I’m wrong
In these thoughts i share
Though I refuse 
Maybe I cared

Maybe? A maybe
The darkness surrounds
This heart just maybe
Had feelings it found
The emotion before
Which i did hide
Surfaces now
A truth i lied
Could this be ?
Could it answer the reason
Had i lied to myself
In self imposed treason
The reason? What reason
Fearfully if so
Will not this torture
Leave me alone.